I'm glad someone got some amusement out of it, but we were definitely the wrong people to ever put in a relationship, fake or not. Alex apparently knows who was responsible, but she didn't say and I'm not gonna ask. Somebody who isn't even here anymore, I guess.
No. I have a vague guess who it was and I don't think getting revenge on them is gonna help. Also I have a feeling she already took care of it.
[ but he kind of laughs to himself with that. he will indulge her with an answer since, again, he's the one who came here with the idea of asking her about the trial eventually. ]
I'm pretty sure Alex thinks it's her new job to make us miserable and she's taking it very seriously. [ dry. ] But we can at least probably keep it together for the next five weeks until we finish this dumb audit and get everybody back out of here.
[ stop this is just making him kind of depressed even if he's giving zero tells of that. ]
I suppose so. When I went to see Lucas—[ hm. maybe not that story. ] I get it. And to answer your question, I'm not sure. Making things better for other people is usually tied to making them better for myself.
I know. But I also don't really know what else to do these days. [ easily admits that. ] The things I try to do for myself blow up in my face, like, 90% of the time anyway.
[ of course they would and they would stun everyone with their beauty on top of it. hate it out here. ]
Pretty sure it's a little of both. I'm sure there are things I could fight for, but I can read the signs it isn't what other people want from me. Or they're choices made out of my hands that no matter what I say or do, they're already done. [ ... a shrug, and a hand comes up to fiddle with the ring hanging from a chain around his neck. ]
How far do you think a person should push to get something they want?
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I'm glad someone got some amusement out of it, but we were definitely the wrong people to ever put in a relationship, fake or not. Alex apparently knows who was responsible, but she didn't say and I'm not gonna ask. Somebody who isn't even here anymore, I guess.
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[ going from the ones she knows and seeing the tbd versions.... even if she doesn't know precisely that they're tbd. ]
I don't know if it's something you two can work to sort out, but I don't want you two to be miserable.
[ in a general sense. ]
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[ but he kind of laughs to himself with that. he will indulge her with an answer since, again, he's the one who came here with the idea of asking her about the trial eventually. ]
I'm pretty sure Alex thinks it's her new job to make us miserable and she's taking it very seriously. [ dry. ] But we can at least probably keep it together for the next five weeks until we finish this dumb audit and get everybody back out of here.
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[ she looks at him a little more closely. ]
But even without her around to make it worse, would you make things any better for yourself?
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it's the second part he's not sure what to do with. ]
What do you mean? Things aren't, like...bad.
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[ and it may not just be what comes with the wings. she doesn't know enough about him, but she can can tell he isn't happy. ]
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Is this the conversation you really want to have when it's the last time we'll get to talk for a while?
[ he will indulge her because he is a sucker that way, but he also figures this is a rabbit hole she may only be talking about in passing. ]
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Showing concern is often something someone does in their last moments, isn't it?
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I suppose so. When I went to see Lucas—[ hm. maybe not that story. ] I get it. And to answer your question, I'm not sure. Making things better for other people is usually tied to making them better for myself.
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she doesn't know who lucas is or that he's blond or that she made him more depressed. ]
I can understand that, but tying most, if not all, of your worth in other people's happiness and well-being isn't balanced.
[ or the most healthy, but she won't say that right now. ]
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I know. But I also don't really know what else to do these days. [ easily admits that. ] The things I try to do for myself blow up in my face, like, 90% of the time anyway.
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That's either misfortune, or you're not being selfish enough.
[ she's sure there are likely other circumstances, but what else can she say without details? ]
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Pretty sure it's a little of both. I'm sure there are things I could fight for, but I can read the signs it isn't what other people want from me. Or they're choices made out of my hands that no matter what I say or do, they're already done. [ ... a shrug, and a hand comes up to fiddle with the ring hanging from a chain around his neck. ]
How far do you think a person should push to get something they want?