I know. But I also don't really know what else to do these days. [ easily admits that. ] The things I try to do for myself blow up in my face, like, 90% of the time anyway.
[ of course they would and they would stun everyone with their beauty on top of it. hate it out here. ]
Pretty sure it's a little of both. I'm sure there are things I could fight for, but I can read the signs it isn't what other people want from me. Or they're choices made out of my hands that no matter what I say or do, they're already done. [ ... a shrug, and a hand comes up to fiddle with the ring hanging from a chain around his neck. ]
How far do you think a person should push to get something they want?
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she doesn't know who lucas is or that he's blond or that she made him more depressed. ]
I can understand that, but tying most, if not all, of your worth in other people's happiness and well-being isn't balanced.
[ or the most healthy, but she won't say that right now. ]
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I know. But I also don't really know what else to do these days. [ easily admits that. ] The things I try to do for myself blow up in my face, like, 90% of the time anyway.
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That's either misfortune, or you're not being selfish enough.
[ she's sure there are likely other circumstances, but what else can she say without details? ]
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Pretty sure it's a little of both. I'm sure there are things I could fight for, but I can read the signs it isn't what other people want from me. Or they're choices made out of my hands that no matter what I say or do, they're already done. [ ... a shrug, and a hand comes up to fiddle with the ring hanging from a chain around his neck. ]
How far do you think a person should push to get something they want?