ace catchall

[disingenuous]

still devastated by his death 10 years later

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[disingenuous]

It means more that you're making an effort.

[ that's something genuine from her tonight. ]

I wouldn't say I was expecting it. You can say... I don't usually expect to be saved. Consider it a result of my upbringing.

[selfimmolation]

[ frowning a little ]

So you don't try to save yourself either?

[disingenuous]

[ ... ]

In a place like this, where they told us the dead can return already, I don't see the point in expending the effort.

[selfimmolation]

Putting a lot of faith in people you didn't think would save you.

[disingenuous]

If the dead can't return and that was a lie from the start...

[ she won't be wholly surprised. ]

That's something I'll think about when it becomes the truth.

[selfimmolation]

[ bristling a little because he was not thinking of that possibility ]

We're not letting that happen.

[disingenuous]

[ she's faintly amused. ]

Then, it'll be fine, won't it? If that end result is your determination, whether I'm here or over there... I don't mind where I am.

[selfimmolation]

[ frowning. even if you come back death sucks but. ]

You're serious?

[disingenuous]

Do you want me to make a fuss, Ace? Maybe if I were younger, I would.

[selfimmolation]

[ he can't understand this he is Too Shonen, ]

... It's your life. Even if it's temporary, if you want to live, you should say it if you're able. What's the point in pretending you don't feel anything about it?

[disingenuous]

[ his questions actually make her pause to consider how to answer instead of flinging out something blithe. ]

I'm capable of saying anything I want to whether I mean it or not. I want to live. I don't care if I do. I wish to be happy. I don't care what that happiness looks like.

[ none of it sounds insincere even if there isn't any heartfelt feeling in her words. it's not a direct answer to his question, but she's never been that straightforward. ]

[selfimmolation]

I know anyone can lie.

[ it isn't quite what she meant, but just Saying Things wasn't what he meant earlier either, is the thing, so it does come off as kind of blithe to him. ]

Never mind. If choosing this is easier for you, I get it.

[disingenuous]

Do you? Is this part of me something you can like?

[ it's mostly said in jest. ]

[selfimmolation]

Probably not, but nobody's perfect.

[ so there, ]

[disingenuous]

[ that makes her smile. ]

I'd be worried if you said anything else.

[selfimmolation]

I'm not that easy.

[ hmmm. he decides to be candid for a bit: ]

I don't know if you did any of these or not, to be honest. [ it's a mystery! ] I didn't come here because I thought I'd find out. I just wanted to make sure I could talk to you before we were cut off for however long it ends up being.

[disingenuous]

I'm talking to you as much as I ever have.

[ she gave him more than usual even if he thought she was still being blithe. ]

[selfimmolation]

[ YOU TRY TO TELL A GIRL YOU CAME HERE BECAUSE YOU ENJOY TALKING WITH HER AND THAT'S WHY YOU DROPPED IT EARLIER AND SHE THINKS YOU ARE CHASTISING HER ]

Yeah, I know.

[disingenuous]

[ SOMETIMES... A GIRL KNOWS SHE'S DIFFICULT AND THINKS THE SHOUNEN GUY DROPPED IT BECAUSE SHE WAS DIFFICULT ]

We still have text messages even if they might become nonsensical.

[selfimmolation]

Is that your way of saying I shouldn't have bothered?

[ a little wry ]

[disingenuous]

[ she laughs a little. ]

No. I would have told you to leave from the start. Your company has never annoyed me.

[selfimmolation]

High praise?

[disingenuous]

I do find many people annoying for very little reason.

[ why is she the most honest about these kind of things ]

[selfimmolation]

Now that's sounding like the most honest thing you've said tonight.