disingenuous | ace catchall

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still devastated by his death 10 years later

[ his questions actually make her pause to consider how to answer instead of flinging out something blithe. ]

I'm capable of saying anything I want to whether I mean it or not. I want to live. I don't care if I do. I wish to be happy. I don't care what that happiness looks like.

[ none of it sounds insincere even if there isn't any heartfelt feeling in her words. it's not a direct answer to his question, but she's never been that straightforward. ]

I know anyone can lie.

[ it isn't quite what she meant, but just Saying Things wasn't what he meant earlier either, is the thing, so it does come off as kind of blithe to him. ]

Never mind. If choosing this is easier for you, I get it.

Do you? Is this part of me something you can like?

[ it's mostly said in jest. ]

Probably not, but nobody's perfect.

[ so there, ]

[ that makes her smile. ]

I'd be worried if you said anything else.

I'm not that easy.

[ hmmm. he decides to be candid for a bit: ]

I don't know if you did any of these or not, to be honest. [ it's a mystery! ] I didn't come here because I thought I'd find out. I just wanted to make sure I could talk to you before we were cut off for however long it ends up being.

I'm talking to you as much as I ever have.

[ she gave him more than usual even if he thought she was still being blithe. ]

[ YOU TRY TO TELL A GIRL YOU CAME HERE BECAUSE YOU ENJOY TALKING WITH HER AND THAT'S WHY YOU DROPPED IT EARLIER AND SHE THINKS YOU ARE CHASTISING HER ]

Yeah, I know.

[ SOMETIMES... A GIRL KNOWS SHE'S DIFFICULT AND THINKS THE SHOUNEN GUY DROPPED IT BECAUSE SHE WAS DIFFICULT ]

We still have text messages even if they might become nonsensical.