I'm not that happy that I've hit the point where I'm justifying what murders were and weren't okay, for one. [ so sort of, but no. ] Everyone's lives should matter, but... I do get it. Why people would kill for an incentive, the idea of sacrificing one person for the sake of several others. It's a slippery slope of deciding who is and isn't more important and I don't know if someone judging dead souls should entertain the idea.
[ but he listens to the rest, and for a moment he's quiet like he's deciding how he wants to approach this... ]
[ it should be obvious where roxana's opinion falls on killing for an incentive, but she doesn't have to think about godhood and judgment the way he does. she doesn't think every life matters, but she does think most do. she's just used to making choices she hates. ]
Your situation is unique. Being understanding and wanting to understand is what helps you with what you do, but that's where it can stop. Understanding doesn't mean agreeing or following, so if you can draw the line there, you should be fine.
[ it may be easier said than done but not untrue in her mind. ]
Grief has yet to let me go. My anger and hatred remain from it.
[ yeah, he does not really care about incentives when they make sense, and given what he does know of her situation, it makes sense. he does not judge her for it, just like he doesn't judge alex for what happened with ichiban. which i can say now that it's been doxxed.
it's really that he does know roxana isn't heartless, and she does feel a way about things. it helps, he thinks. or maybe he's just as biased about her as he is about other people he cares about. ]
... true. I have tried to remind myself that understanding doesn't mean agreeing. I've kinda said the same to other people, too, but I think you and I both know it can be difficult to apply the same logic to ourselves as we do other people. I can draw a line, but I want to make sure it's a line that I can back up, you know?
[ ... ]
I don't think my grief is gone yet for other people I've lost. I don't know if it ever will be because of things I regret that came from it. So it's not like I don't get that. [ ... ] Is it too forward to ask who?
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[ but he listens to the rest, and for a moment he's quiet like he's deciding how he wants to approach this... ]
... speaking from experience?
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Your situation is unique. Being understanding and wanting to understand is what helps you with what you do, but that's where it can stop. Understanding doesn't mean agreeing or following, so if you can draw the line there, you should be fine.
[ it may be easier said than done but not untrue in her mind. ]
Grief has yet to let me go. My anger and hatred remain from it.
[ she'll be honest enough about. ]
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it's really that he does know roxana isn't heartless, and she does feel a way about things. it helps, he thinks. or maybe he's just as biased about her as he is about other people he cares about. ]
... true. I have tried to remind myself that understanding doesn't mean agreeing. I've kinda said the same to other people, too, but I think you and I both know it can be difficult to apply the same logic to ourselves as we do other people. I can draw a line, but I want to make sure it's a line that I can back up, you know?
[ ... ]
I don't think my grief is gone yet for other people I've lost. I don't know if it ever will be because of things I regret that came from it. So it's not like I don't get that. [ ... ] Is it too forward to ask who?