disingenuous | seodore catchall

[ outside on the flight deck, roxana is seated by the planters. her eyes are closed, but the moment she senses his presence, her eyes snap open. there's a small pause before she asks: ]

Seodore, if I remember right?

[ she picks up her phone as if she'll check if he won't confirm. ]

Mhmm~ And you must be Roxana. Were you hoping to get some rest here?

[ Unfortunately, he's here. ]

I was just enjoying the nice weather. I don't own this airport.

[ she pats the spot next to her, as if it's not unfortunate he's here at all. ]

Join me.

Sure thing~

[ He goes to sit next to her. ]

Looks like you're taking all this in stride.

Panicking will do nothing for me. I'd rather take everything as calmly as I can. You don't seem too bothered either.

Well, there's nothing to panic about. Whatever the auditors think about undoing whatever happened during my stay at Nueva Bork is almost nothing to me, so I don't feel as motivated.

Didn't you all die? You don't care if you stay dead?

There is nothing I would love more than to stay dead for the rest of my existence.

What an open and morbid thing to say to someone you just met. [ she isn't admonishing him or anything. she's almost amused, but her expression remains placid. ]

Are you asking for someone to target you?

Does it matter in this sort of scenario? There are so many personal information dug out of strangers already~

But what do you think? Hm? Everyone is so terrible at murdering people for good.

There is always more that can be uncovered.

[ especially if people are just saying things instead of meaning things. ]

They already told us no one would stay dead. That wouldn't help you if you meant what you said.

I've long accepted that most circumstances and situations don't help me. Do you expect them to help you?

What a fatalistic outlook. You can turn them around to help you, if you cared enough.

How hopeful. It's nice to think that today's youth can take things into their own hands.

Why do you speak as if you're an elder?

Because I feel like I'm talking to a youngster with hopes and dreams~ Why else would I?

[ this is both funny and insulting at the same time. ]

I see this old man has had everything taken from him. Even if there is no hope left in your frail body, would you take back a dream, if you could?

[ yea ]

Whether they're dreams or hopes, I just want one thing, and I wouldn't classify it as either of those. So, no!

[ Sometimes people don't deserve to be hot women when the opportunity arises.

Alas.

She looks at you with a smile, but it doesn't look like she's speaking directly TO you. ]

Are you having fun?

[ maybe he doesn't deserve to be, but he's so pretty as a she.

roxana tilts her head, almost curiously. if she's not being spoken to.... ]

Fun...? I don't know if I could say it's fun. Are you?

[ Without missing a beat: ]

Then you'd have to make your own fun~ Here, come walk with me.

[ ...

might as well. she will walk up to her. ]

How whimsical of you.

Did you not figure that out with the past interactions, Roxanaaaa? But that's fine, you know? I'm very forgiving!

It was a comment, not a realization, but I'm ever so grateful for your forgiving and kind heart.

[ They go on their little walk and Seo tilts her head. ]

Good~ What do you even like, Roxana? Aside from pretty clothes. I'm sure you'd spend hours in the clothes store to make sure something would be fitting.

No, not hours. I know what will look good on me. [ objectively, she knows she's beautiful. it's not an ego thing. ] I spend much of my time at home attending to my family's business.

[ seo gets it ]

Oh? What sort of business is it?

[ Hot air balloon rides!

The larger gates are clearly meant for airships to dock, but a smaller gate services those who wish for a pleasant day trip. The small baskets of these colorful hot air balloons are suitable for only two or three at a time. The balloon will automatically sail away from the terminal over the sea and towards a distant mountain range before making its way back.

If you venture far enough, you may see colorful birds and perhaps even a dragon flying in the distance. If you happen to drop anything, not to worry. It will be collected and returned to you upon departure.

One day, perhaps Roxana wanted to go to the hot air balloons for any reason, whether logical or illogical, and spotted an empty basket that's ready for takeoff. It must be nice not to wait!

But as soon as she walks into the basket, she'll find Seodore, crouching down and doing... something? It looks like he's fiddling with something. With the basket swing door closed and the hot air balloon taking off, he startles. ]

Wh--

[ He looks up and sees Roxana--pure, unadulterated beauty... that he can't appreciate. Reminds me of the time when he inspected Jane's corpse and wasn't bewitched by her thighs (or something like that). ]

Oh... Agrece's daughter.

[ Sorry, he's still being a shit. ]

What brings you here? You wanted to ride a hot air balloon with me thaaaaat bad?

[ looking at new locations before they disappear to the new side is as good a reason as any.

it's fine. she is used to being around people whose eyes don't work like that now (jacopo. scaramouche. seodore can be another. she doesn't mind.) she knows he says things to be a shit and to get a reaction. she's used to that now, too, so she barely glances at him. ]

If I said I did? What then?

Then we can have a chat! Or it could be completely one-sided while you listen to me babble the entire time! Even if I ask questions and don't get answers, I'll just keep talking, you knoooow?

[ Seodore "yapper" Riddle... ]

Did Tama appreciate your gift?

Oh, the curse wore off before I did anything.

[ fortunately. ]

But go ahead and talk about whatever you like.

[ she looks out at the ocean view. ]

[ "fortunately".................... tch

Well. Roxana gave him her permission. So. Okay. ]

Did you know that having nine children with two of them missing and probably laughing at their parent is really annoying when they don't want to be found? Then I think of you, and wonder if you would be anything like that--a runaway child who would love to just hide and just not seemingly care about anything. It must be nice to repress your feelings, so that you can do anything you want and people won't bat an eye to your actions and you can tell yourself that you did the right thing so that you can sleep at night~ or something~ Say, do you even sleep? I guess you would, unless you learned how to hide all the panda circles around your eyes, then good for you. That's some life hacking skills. Oh, did you know that the heat temperature that's used to lift his hot air balloon can go up to one thousand two hundred Fahrenheit? That's abooooout six hundred and fifty Celsius! It sure would burn someone to a crisp, but not enough! Have you ever imagined burning your house down with yourself in it? Probably because you hate your family that much? There must be some emotions in there apart from quiet fury, annoyance, and amusement, right? I imagine your life would be much harder if you didn't have that beauty to begin with, but like everything else, it's a very time limited tool~ At least I can acknowledge that you've been making the most of it, I'm sure. By the way, they really like cursing you, huh? Maybe I'm not the only one who wants to see you act differently, after all! Oh, but Roxana Agrece in love would make everyone's heads spin~ Yup~ But really, all sorts of love are powerful as long as people give it power!

[ He's going to keep rambling if Roxana doesn't say anything. ]

[ fortunately because she's not as thoughtful a gift giver as manwol. she's yan and selfish. she wouldn't be that ashamed though.

she doesn't listen too hard to him as he rambles. ]

You should breathe and pause more if you want some of those statements to land.

[ she doesn't give him much of the reaction he may want. there is a lot that's she's heard before. ]

But if all you want to be is annoying instead of instigating, you're doing well.

[ Luckily, Seodore has given up on getting any sort of reaction from Roxana. So then why does he do this? Because he can. Because he has time. Because he.... is bored................. ]

When did I ever say that's what I wanted to do? Silly girl, assuming things on your own. And why instigate, if I can just push you out of this hot air balloon? Company is company, no matter how much of a wall the other person is.

Is it? You mention enough about how you want to die. Or are those just words you say because they're words you can say?

You could have also left before this took off. You can jump out with your own two feet now, too.

[ there are so many options. ]

I can, yeah~ but what's the point? No one here dies for good. What's the point, if you don't really "die"?

[ The thing he was fiddling with earlier is revealed to be a little woodblock of a five pointed star. ]

I guess you can earn some traumatic memories from "dying"? Death isn't a real death if you just come back, but everybody treats it like you'll be gone for good like last night's conversation. Or maybe they don't want blood on their hands despite them being willing to "die" for the "cause", or the achievements.

[ He pockets it and takes out a pack of cigarettes and a lighter. ]

You can jump out too, you know? Instead of wasting time being trapped in this hot air balloon with me, you could be doing other things. Is time something you can waste?

If you want a few hours of oblivion, you can have it.

[ she doesn't know why he wants to die, but that's a reason for someone out there probably. ]

Everyone was aware it wouldn't last forever, but the point is that people care about who dies even if it won't last. They care in general, and even if someone is used to death, it's normal to not want someone you like to die.

[ she sees but won't comment on the little woodblock. ]

Most, if not all of us, have some blood on our hands. If not from one of these games, then from home, for one reason or another.

I may not be normal, but I'm not going to do anything that's a waste of time to me. The view outweighs the empty feelings behind your words.

Mm-hmm, mm-hmm~

[ He got his pack and lighter out, but he puts it back into his pocket again. Seo thinks about something while looking out at the ocean and then reaches out in an attempt to ruffle her hair. Messily. Please get tangles. ]

[ he can touch her hair, but the moment he does, roxana makes a grab for his hand to hold it in a vice grip. unfortunately, her genetics are unfair, so even if it tangles, it won't last for long.

her voice is quiet and calm as ever. ]

You do not have permission to touch me like that.

[ Seo is a little surprised on how strong her grip is, but ends up laughing a little. ]

I don't respect you at all to ask for your permission. I actually really like people, but you truly test that.

[ Perhaps he would have like how he was just trying to get Roxana to stop doing things when she was cursed, but that was really the extent of it even back then. She said that she would go for one of his earrings, and he thinks she deserves to die. He's not as much of a mystery as he appears to be, and just painfully human.

And that's why he attempts to fling Roxana above the burner part of the hot air balloon. Death by 1200F heat? ]

[ okay, that's fine. questionably fine.

she doesn't need him to like her or his respect, but if he wants people to leave his earrings alone, he should be less obvious. he broadcasts how much that's the only thing he treasures. of course it's an easy button to press. the math is simple.

if death were more permanent, she'd maybe fight this more, but she doesn't really want to be around him either. maybe he shouldn't have tried to hinder her while she was obviously cursed and crazy in love if he didn't want his earrings threatened.

she's nothing, if not petty and vengeful. ]

I don't need your respect or your permission.

[ her grip is strong enough that even as he starts to throw her, she uses the momentum to try to shove him over the endge of the hot air balloon basket.

he can die, too. ]

[ With that, Seodore is tipped out of the hot air balloon basket. He doesn't bother grabbing for the edge either and just falls and falls. The view is actually pretty great, so he thinks he got the better deal out of this than Roxana, who's probably painfully burning right now.

He is truly a man of his own making--his own errors, his own actions, his own consequences and has no one else to blame but himself. ]

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