strohl catchall

[disingenuous]

how many metaphors can i fit in here

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week 2, SATURDAY!!!!

[halians]

[ ara our missed connections this week ALSO LISTEN MY BRAIN WAS FRIED LIKE EGG IN THE SUMMER SUN AND NOW YOU'RE LEAVING ME I WAS DISTRAUGHT!!!!!

anyway!!! saturday!!! strohl will come to see roxana once some of the initial hubbub has calmed down - even just taking a look at his face, he looks deeply conflicted, mouth pulled into a tight frown as he eases in through the door and comes to settle down by the jail bars. ]

...Roxana. [ soft, voice a little rough. ] What a damned mess.

[disingenuous]

[ CRIES I'M SORRY I DON'T KNOW WHAT HAPPENED i hope you had fun at pride

roxana is seated on the bed, looking composed in comparison. ]

It didn't seem like any of you were certain of anything.

[halians]

No, we weren't.

[ i tried to catch up and was even more confused - strohl, however, was definitely there the entire time and therefore immediately looks pissed, though it's not at roxana by any means. ]

--And yet, forced to vote anyway, based on conjecture - and someone has to pay the price no matter their guilt or innocence. Fork tongued bastards who run this place and find this suffering amusing - it makes me sick.

[disingenuous]

[ she nods as she listens to his anger. ]

You have such an upright heart, Strohl. You always feel so strongly.

[halians]

I— [ there’s a beat, frowning - it’s kind words to be spared in such a moment, but still, enough to throw him off briefly. it’s really starting to sink in that it’s Roxana, that he really, really enjoys her company on top of all the infuriating injustice that is the trial system. ]

Of course, but, how could anyone not - how could you not, Roxana, you’re the one set on death row after a circus of a trial.

[disingenuous]

[ she hums a little. ]

I don't mind so terribly. They said the dead can return already, so... it's a matter of acceptance now.

[ at least for her. ]

[halians]

You...

[ a beat - mouth opening, closing, jaw working. ]

I am. [ after a long, rough moment. it's so frustrating, and the idea of acceptance is so beyond him, so - is this better, is this worse, than last week? than knowing what happened to vi and seeing rosamund wake up from it? this place is so full of injustice for the people he cares for that it burns strohl to his core. ] If you're not angry for your sake, then I will be.

I'm - [ rrrgh. he keeps stopping and starting, stopping and starting, finding composure and eloquence and losing it again, like a river batting up against a dam. ] ... I'm not ready to say goodbye to you, yet.

[disingenuous]

[ there's a brief pause before she offers a small smile. ]

If what they say is true, it's not goodbye forever. You'll just have to keep working hard.

[halians]

[ hghghg. it's so - frustrating. his fists curl, and loosen. ]

... [ but, eventually he'll nod - short, face complicated, expression a mess before he reins himself in just a little and swallows some of that fury back. ]

... Is... there anything I can do for you? [ roughly. ] Anything.