[ roxana has a lot of regrets, but she'd die before letting it show. she offers him a small smile although it has a slight edge to it. ]
The way my family operates is in opposition—or if not in opposition, at least a little counter to those who are more morally upright or believe in concepts like fairness and justice.
[ she isn't the type of person who shrugs, but her voice adopts an it is what it is kind of tone. ]
If I wanted to survive in my family, that's how I have to be.
[ one day he's going to ask her too many questions and she may very well kill him. for now, he seems to take this into consideration, watching her carefully and calculating the right way to say this. ]
... you don't have to answer this, but... what is it that's keeping you with your family then? [ it's not so much that he believes roxana would want to be morally upright or fair, but he thinks about their vague dabblings in conversations about survival and wonders if it would maybe be easier to survive outside of her family or in it. ]
[ he interprets this as her father's abusive basically and has forced her to comply in ways she didn't want to as a child and now she can't go backwards. ]
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The way my family operates is in opposition—or if not in opposition, at least a little counter to those who are more morally upright or believe in concepts like fairness and justice.
[ she isn't the type of person who shrugs, but her voice adopts an it is what it is kind of tone. ]
If I wanted to survive in my family, that's how I have to be.
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... you don't have to answer this, but... what is it that's keeping you with your family then? [ it's not so much that he believes roxana would want to be morally upright or fair, but he thinks about their vague dabblings in conversations about survival and wonders if it would maybe be easier to survive outside of her family or in it. ]
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My father will dispose of anyone who doesn't fit the image he wants. There's no way I could have fought back or escaped as a young child.
[ back when she still had the heart to not conform. ]
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And as an adult? Are you still trapped?