Is it believable if I say I really don't know yet? I go back and forth on how I feel about that a lot.
[ sometimes he thinks it's exhausting to know he's experienced a lot more than he remembers and even not remembering the exact memories, he can feel the results. and sometimes it's horrifying to think about what important things he might be missing and what context he lacks for who he is. ]
There are always going to be people you don't know and can't get to know whether because of your own means or theirs. You still try, but it won't always be perfect.
It is. It's not like every feeling or thought can be settled and firm, and it's not as if we aren't going through our lives still.
[ there's something that she can't decipher or discern about herself yet either. she may be decisive about much, and her experiences have led her to a certain point, but there's at least one thing that's lost to her still. ]
[ he decides not to point out he's technically dead because he is very obviously still going through these things, and even he can't deny that. ]
Not to mention even when you think you're settled, anything can come along and change it anyway.
[ though... he can't deny that either. ]
I've had enough people give up on me. I'm not going to be that person for other people. [ so. yes. ] And it's why I want to try to understand everything before condemning someone or whatever.
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Is it believable if I say I really don't know yet? I go back and forth on how I feel about that a lot.
[ sometimes he thinks it's exhausting to know he's experienced a lot more than he remembers and even not remembering the exact memories, he can feel the results. and sometimes it's horrifying to think about what important things he might be missing and what context he lacks for who he is. ]
There are always going to be people you don't know and can't get to know whether because of your own means or theirs. You still try, but it won't always be perfect.
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[ there's something that she can't decipher or discern about herself yet either. she may be decisive about much, and her experiences have led her to a certain point, but there's at least one thing that's lost to her still. ]
You're the type to try and keep trying.
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Not to mention even when you think you're settled, anything can come along and change it anyway.
[ though... he can't deny that either. ]
I've had enough people give up on me. I'm not going to be that person for other people. [ so. yes. ] And it's why I want to try to understand everything before condemning someone or whatever.
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We're all shaped by our experiences. We often try to right the ways we were wronged.
[ for better or worse. ]
But at least the way you're doing it is meant to help.
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... currently though, my experience is telling me tomorrow's still going to be a pain in the ass, no matter how much we may want to right wrongs.