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[disingenuous]

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[disingenuous]

... It would have been nice to end with the blessing that befell you and Percy.

[ .... ]

It's good that you didn't have to lose him.

[ She is trying so hard to be as she usually is. ]

[daggering]

[ baby. baby girl.

... his shoulders slump a little, and he reaches up and scrubs his face. ]

...Wish it had been that way for Malik, too. I tried asking the Residents, but they didn't know what the fuck happened, either.

[disingenuous]

[ She's silent for a moment. ]

I am not sure... whether it'd be better to think it was inevitable, or if it could have been stopped, if we tried harder yesterday, if he was guilty.

What would we would do if we found both in time?

[ It doesn't do much good to dwell in what ifs, and Roxana doesn't usually, but her emotional exhaustion has taken its toll.

Her hands are folded in her lap, and her fingers curl into fists. ]

It's nothing we will ever know, but... it would hurt a little to know if today could have ended differently.

[daggering]

[ oh, roxana. vax listens - the same question's been on his mind, too. what would they have done? voted out malik? killed him? killed percy? the idea makes his stomach twist. ]

...'s the worst part. [ quiet. ] The not knowing. Think it's easy to get caught up in that. 's all I was thinking, yesterday. What if I'd noticed sooner, you know? What if I'd been able to get up on Thursday, stop Percy?

[ but he couldn't. this place takes away their control, as vax learned the first week, and it hasn't gotten any better. it makes him angry, makes him lost. even if he's feeling more centered, from the events that occurred today...

... it's still just wrong. ]

Better or worse, that you had to be the one to do it?

[disingenuous]

[ It's still just wrong. ]

We only have what happened.

[ She's quiet, quieter than usual. How quickly people are manipulated, how quickly people are made to kill, how quickly people are killed here—it's another page in her terrible book.

There is no hesitation in her answer to his question. ]

It's better. I have had enough of others killing people I care about.

[ It may not be right, and it may not be healthy, but it's sincere. ]