disingenuous | kashuu catchall

[He's just havin' a sit with one leg stretched out in front of him, since it's splinted, and his wielding arm in a sling. Life's hard when you only pod for an hour because you're more worried about other people. His sword's still at his side, and his expression isn't as open as it had been yesterday, but it's easy to tell he's just - exhausted.]

...Yeah. She wanted to do her best to-- I dunno. Keep up with the rest of us, I think. [...] She felt bad for always being so scared.

[ why are you like this kashuu

i say but roxana only spent a couple hours in the pod because i didn't want to think about the logistics of other people's requests and how time would work when there are only 2 pods???

anyway, all her clothes cover all her visible injuries so she's vibing. ]

There was nothing to keep up with. She shouldn't have to force herself to be more like any of us.

[shakes ur hand im in fckin tears]

Yeah.

[He agrees with that fully, because Chinatsu is a product of peaceful times, and ironically, that's exactly what swords like him fight to provide to humans.]

...But I get why she wanted to, too. Even if we all told her there's nothing wrong with it, she's the kinda person who would wanna stand toe-to-toe with everyone around her.

I know. In this environment, she would have to adapt or she would break. I never thought her weak for coming from a peaceful world or for reacting as she did.

[ In some ways, Roxana wished she weren't someone who could take all of this in stride. ]

I agreed that she should learn how to fight.

[ For the scenario that someone would come after her life, just like today. Last night? ]

And I agreed that she should face things head on even if all she could do was look away more often than not.

[He wishes no one here could take this in stride, since it speaks volumes about them all, honestly. But he'd admired Chinatsu's resolve and strength all the same.]

It takes someone with a lot of willpower to see this kinda stuff and still want to stand up against it, I think.

[Everyone on their floor has a type of strength, he believes. That same steely backbone.]

...I hope she gave whoever went after her hell.

It does.

[ She knows there are those who wouldn't stand up after seeing half the things they've been put through here. ]

I hope she left some kind of sign. [ She better have. ] She had the will.

She did, yeah. I'm sure she didn't go down without some sorta fight.

[Unless she just got shot like a normie or something, rip.]

She has too much fight in her, and she's not that slow that she wouldn't realize what it means to be awake when everyone else should sleep.

[ But if she gets shot from a distance, that won't help a normie, yeah.

looks away from that stage and whatever the fuck those circle wounds are ????? I'M STILL SO ???? ]

I want to hope she took precautions.

[closes my eyes as we all find out what the fck they were now]

...Yeah. Me, too. I don't think she woulda headed off to that place without some sort of plan, though... We'll have to keep an eye out tomorrow.

[ ?????? do we know????? what do you know that i don't? ]

I don't know how I'll feel if we don't find out who took her life.

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