aventurine catchall

[disingenuous]

all or nothing

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[disingenuous]

[ in the years since that memory, she has long learned to school most of emotion out of her expression until only composure remains. reliving her brother's death is one of the few things that shake it, so aventurine can notice her grief for the brief moment it shows before she regains her usual placidity. ]

... It should be expected at this point, but I would have hoped for better circumstances for a first meeting.

[tactic]

[ He's no stranger to the loss of a beloved sibling, but he can't show that now. In fact, all he really wants is to book it out of here to avoid having his own memories interrupt them, but unfortunately, he's manners first. ]

An unfortunate stroke of luck. [ They can salvage this. ] Miss Roxana, is it? Please excuse me, I should have greeted you sooner. I'm called Aventurine.

[disingenuous]

[ that's such a relatable feeling even if roxana can't read bracket text. she doesn't book it because she doesn't want to show weakness. ]

It's all right. This isn't the kind of place I expect people to stand at the door to greet me. Essek mentioned you to me. A pleasure, Aventurine.

[tactic]

Oh, dear. I hope he wasn't too uncharitable about me.

[ Assumes the worst because it's Essek. ]

[disingenuous]

[ she smiles. ]

So you're aware. He said I should be wary around you.

[tactic]

[ Smiles in return. ]

I get the impression that you're rather formidable on your own, Miss Roxana. I doubt he had to warn you to be wary.

[disingenuous]

Oh, I won't try to over or undersell myself. He said you were charming, in that annoyed way you could also say is affectionate.

[ essek, you make it so easy to bully you. ]

[tactic]

He's a dishonest fellow, mostly to himself.

[ NOT THEM RAGGING ON ESSEK WHILE HE ISN'T EVEN HERE ]

About your memory, shall I forget I ever saw it?

[disingenuous]

I know the type. It's more adorable with some than others.

[ they can tag team him in person one day. ]

It's what I'd prefer, but I don't know if you're the type who forgets easily.

[tactic]

[ Not the 2v1... Blondes were always evil. ]

I'd much rather make friends than enemies. After all, besides the occasional headache, you don't often have anything to gain from making enemies.

[disingenuous]

They can both cause problems. What would you gain from our friendship, Aventurine?

[ said in the tone that says she won't make it easy to be friends. ]

[tactic]

I've yet to discover that. But I think the merits of friendship are usually discovered along the way, don't you think so?

[ That's okay, Roxana, get away from this freak. ]

[disingenuous]

[ he's the real treasure is the friends we made along the way-ing her. ]

I don't think those merits are guaranteed. There's an equal chance of being stabbed in the back from my experience.

[tactic]

That's fine with me too. It's a bit like gambling in a way.

[ Okay, no. He has no idea what friendship is because it's not that. ]

[disingenuous]

[ even roxana knows friendship shouldn't be like gambling. she's amused. ]

Right now, you're all talk for a gambling man. No one taught you friendship in your last game?

[tactic]

I like to think I made friends.

[ He did not keep in contact with anyone of them, oof. ]

Some of them are even here.

[disingenuous]

[ did he just go off with nehan? HE WON'T EVEN TEXT ROBIN?

she tilts her head. ]

Essek is one. Who else?

[tactic]

[ OKAY FINE HE SENT HER A "I'M SORRY YOUR BROTHER IS A WANTED FUGITIVE NOW GET BETTER SOON (I'M NOT ACTUALLY THAT SORRY)" TEXT ]

Have you met our hosts? Mr. Daan is another one of them.

[disingenuous]

[ HE NEVER TOLD HER WHY HE'S SO MAD AT SUNDAY.... SHE DOESN'T KNOW HER BROTHER USED THE HARMONY ON HIM thanks aventurine she's happier he's a wanted fugitive and not a prisoner on death row. ]

I'll have to become more acquainted and see what he has to say.

[ memshare week is almost over and you haven't given me one back. ]

[tactic]

[ Look, he's got enough EQ to not put her in that awkward position. ]

I think he'll be more charitable with what he has to say than Essek was.

[ But oh nyo, i almost got away with it. Since they kicked it off with family, have family (stop at 4:59:40) in return. ]

[disingenuous]

[ do you think i wouldn't hold you at gunpoint for a memory?

a younger roxana would think there is good fortune in surviving like this against all odds, but now... she wonders how much of a front he puts forward besides his name. he was so young there to be told he should be left so alone like that. ]

Are you religious, Aventurine?

[tactic]

[ A restless energy comes over him once the memory ends, and Aventurine looks to nowhere in particular. ]

... I don't know. I grew up being told I was a blessed child, favored by our goddess, but as I grew older, it became harder and harder to believe.

[disingenuous]

[ she watches him carefully. ]

Being blessed can be a curse as much as anything else. I don't know what the years between then and now were like for you, but I wouldn't blame you for losing faith.

[tactic]

[ A laugh, dry without humor. Just a noise to slice through whatever somber air that's been allowed to seep in during his moment of weakness. ]

I can't lose it. No matter what the years have done to me, it's still the faith of my clan, of my mother and my sister. I hold onto it for them.

[ He just... can't believe in it like them. ]

[disingenuous]

That makes it their faith, not yours. More a memento or a talisman they've given you than something you uphold yourself.

[ it's not like she can't understand not being to let go. her brother's death is still something that affects her enough that it breaks through her composure. ]

I think their love is something better to remember than their faith.

[ even if their love also meant that they left him. ]