[ She approves of that. She has no room to speak of selfishness when hers is on the other end of the spectrum, but at least they don't view it as less than it is even if their self-worth is in the gutter. ]
[they've been scolded for it—trying to protect everyone, weighing their well-being against others, putting themself at risk—so many times that it'd take a special, willful sort of ignorance not to realize how much their friends hate clarte's behaviour sometimes.
[ There isn't any way she can deny that, not with how her family operates and not with how she does. She makes a number of selfish choices for her self-preservation.
And yet, she continues to make these choices she hates herself for. ]
In accordance with what you want out of life. Although there are those who don't know what they want.
[in the little of a remembered life clarte has led, and probably even in the memories buried within them, they've watched people like melina give so much to others. that compassion is one of the things they love about her, but it's a relief in the few times melina actually does something for herself.
of course, there are things from people that even clarte cannot condone. but surely, thinking of your own happiness* in itself cannot be a sin.
*fuck clarte's, though]
... Indeed. I hope, at least, that they can come to decide that for themselves one day.
[ Thinking of your own happiness* is not a sin. It's what you do to achieve it that could be. --Jeanne d'Arc, Fate/, probably. She would love Clarte, now that I think about it but also tell them they're stupid.
Roxana is surrounded by people who are nothing but selfish at home. It's something her family is known for, something her father encourages as long as it doesn't get in his way. The amount of selfishness she knows leaves her feeling sick. It's why the type of selfishness she sees from people who've been slotted Verdant stands out. ]
I hope that what comes out of those decisions is still good. Selfishness often occurs when people are pushed into darker times.
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[ you self-sacrificial lout ]
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[it would be nice if the world made it simple to protect others without having to die for it, but.]
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[ There is a significant pause. ]
What of the people you leave behind?
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You acknowledge it as selfishness.
[ She approves of that. She has no room to speak of selfishness when hers is on the other end of the spectrum, but at least they don't view it as less than it is even if their self-worth is in the gutter. ]
We're both selfish in our own ways.
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and yet, they can't deny it keeps happening.]
Selfishness is part of existing, I think.
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And yet, she continues to make these choices she hates herself for. ]
In accordance with what you want out of life. Although there are those who don't know what they want.
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of course, there are things from people that even clarte cannot condone. but surely, thinking of your own happiness* in itself cannot be a sin.
*fuck clarte's, though]
... Indeed. I hope, at least, that they can come to decide that for themselves one day.
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Roxana is surrounded by people who are nothing but selfish at home. It's something her family is known for, something her father encourages as long as it doesn't get in his way. The amount of selfishness she knows leaves her feeling sick. It's why the type of selfishness she sees from people who've been slotted Verdant stands out. ]
I hope that what comes out of those decisions is still good. Selfishness often occurs when people are pushed into darker times.
[ *including Clarte ]
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Yes. In darker times, you can often see who a person truly is.
... Though sometimes, that means it's when their best sides emerge as well.
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If things take a turn here, we'll see who's whom here.
[ me hitting thread from the start to remember what day this thread is ]
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... I don't see it as a matter of being dragged down.
we had more thread than i thought
[ She meant people who would throw others under the bus to get ahead. ]
hehe except also not hehe
I can't deny that.
[they're very, very familiar with that sort of person, after all.]
(francy voice) shoves you into a locker
[ With that boundless kindness and patience they seem to have. ]
be nice to me